Tuesday, April 14, 2009


So I had a fun conversation with my sil last night. Then I dreamed about chickens all night. If you'll recall, she was the one who introduced me to the cuteness of baby chicks last month. She said that they are all alive and doing well.

Which is more than I can say about myself.

I'm alive, of course, but not doing well. Amber said she'd been here a few times to check on me but I hadn't updated so she didn't know what was going on. (I keep telling her to join Facebook and she'd know...)

Part of it is that we've got so much going on these days that I don't have time to sit and think, much less to write. I haven't been journal writing either. No time, no impetus. Part of it is that I've been so depressed that it's a good day when I get out of bed and get a few things done, much less attempt to say something interesting on Xanga. And then, there's the desire to not always come across as a whiny moper here.

This morning I went to Curves for the first time in weeks. I feel like a fat, ugly slob (well, I am a fat, ugly slob) and I really didn't want to go out there and have to be "up" for anyone. But the only way to get away from being a fat, ugly slob is to go work out. So I did. I don't feel all "pumped up" or whatever but I feel like I've at least done something right today.

Now I'm going to take a shower (another something right), eat some breakfast, and sew costumes for the fast-approaching play.

This week is the Cincinnati Homeschool Convention, which I'm supposed to attend. I always hesitate signing up for things like this because they end up coming at the craziest times but the last time there was one, Friend Gina went and listened to Susan Wise Bauer and I was very envious. So Susan is back this time and I am going to the convention with Friend Daneille. And I get to go to a birthday tea in Xenia, OH on Saturday, which will be fun but I need to buy birthday pressies for my pals. And next weekend is Sarah's much-delayed Sweet Sixteen party which requires major mucking-out of the house.

Anyway, I feel weighted down and wish I could just sleep until July, but then that would probably not be very pleasant either.

Ok, Sarah needs to use the computer for her math. When did you start using scientific and graphing calculators? She's in the 10th grade and she's using them for math. I managed to get through graduate school without ever using a graphing calculator. Thank goodness for free stuff online!

I hope y'all're doing well! Please pray for Friend Cherylyn, who is undergoing cancer treatment. See you soon, I hope.


stringsofpurls said...

I will pray for you Lori. I went to Curves for the first time today in Loveland. It's hard to do it all, stay fit, keep the house fit, keep the kids fro having fits. I too have friends with cancer...and then throw in the times we live in. Overwhelming...Soo we will have sunshine everyday and that will help!
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:28-30

Gina said...

We had to buy Collin a graphing calculator. Holy moly that thing is complicated.

Sorry to hear you're so down. I didn't know. Call or e-mail if you need to talk.

msta62 said...

I do like the new colors on your blogspot page. Maybe not new(?) - but I've only checked your xanga page for a while. Hope you feel better soon! "Soon Summer"!!!